You're never far from my thoughts, I just wish it wasn't this way. I'll always care.

somedays

Somedays I still wish you were part of my life, I do something and just instantly remember you, Like I know you'd be sat there laughing your head off at me. But your not, It's like we were never anything, You've moved on, I've moved on, Yet so many things still trigger my feelings for you. It's like I will always have an emtional connection you. Something that I guess I will never loose. I just hope that you still think of me as I think of you. Cause you're still high up there.

Happiness

If only you could see, See that im not as happy as you make out. Of course i wish i still had you in my life. We were perfect. I miss you everyday. I'll always love you regardless. I look at photos and smile, I read letters and cry, I watch videos and laugh. You did make me happy. But when you were with me, You couldnt fully be happy cause you wanted to be trans, And i couldnt deal with it, ill always be here for you though. You should know this. Nemo. Dory <3

Single

Again! What is it? I actually ended it with him, everything he did pissed me off. Every tiny thing pissed me off. I feel like im in such a rush to fall in love again and im not ready. Part of my heart is still stuck on her. Hoping that things will change. Of course i still miss her. I dont think i ever will. I wish we could be friends. But i know we cant cause we both fall back in love with eachother. I think she saw me in my underwear through the window the other day. I had a little chuckle to myself. I'll always be here.

Easier

Being alone, no one for me to hurt, no one to hurt me. That the way its going to be. Look after myself and just be by myself. I want to hate you but i cant. I just want to be happy. Whys that so hard?

Fuck

Realising you miss someone you shouldn't, Realising you arn't fully over them. Fucking stupid brain, Fucking stupid heart. Fuck.

Words

Don't know what to say. I can't control what someone gets on their body, But yet im the one upset over what you think. Why do you still manage to upset me? Why do i still care about your opinion? I hoped that one day we could of been friends. But that doesn't seem likely now. You hate me. And yeah it kinda still hurts.